3days ago we made the 2hour trip to Hamilton to have my routine 20week scan (intervention?). I was petrified as i was a tad paranoid there would be something wrong but mainly because i was scared the sonographer would accidentally let slip what sex our baby was. We were greeted to the images of a most perfect, amazing, beautifully clear little miracle of a baby. We still have no idea as to what sex he or she may be and are happy to report that "NAD" was written on the bottom of the report...No abnormality detected. The best we can hope for although they do state that by writing those 3 little letters they can still no way say 100% that everything is perfect. Routine scans...just another way in which doctors can invert more fear into a mother whilst satisfying their own curiosity?? (I have purposfully cropped out my details.)
However, heres the beautiful human being living inside my uterus xx
As today stands, Febuary 20th 2012 we, my husband and I are planning on a homebirth with our really great midwife. I up untill this afternoon was happy with this. This morning i had my monthly check up with our midwife. We heard the babys heartbeat, felt some kicks and talked about the routine blood tests coming up and about birthing pools. We also talked a bit about my impending homebirth. Up untill that point had felt so calm and happy and at peace with our decision to have a homebirth. Nothing else truely mattered. Im healthy and my babys healthy and unless anything happens i will go into labor and give birth at home. Today my midwife started saying things like, we will start labor at home and then we will see how we go etc etc. I started feeling as if she was beginning to put restrictions on me. So im left to close my eyes and imagne my birth...
What do i see...
I see me going to bed early and being awoken by contractions at around midnightish. I try and stay in bed and rest then get up and walk and fluff when contractions get quite bad. After a few hours i wake hubby and tell him it wont be long and to fill the birth pool for me. I check on my 2 big kiddies and they are sound asleep. Cuddles with hubby, lots of love and attention. I continue to walk and stay upright, eating and drinking and emptying my bladder when i feel the need to do so. When the pain and contractions get close together and quite bad, then i get into the pool and wait to feel my uterus beginning to expel (for lack of a better word), my baby. My baby will enter this world and have me to bring him/her into my own arms and against my naked breasts. Baby in my arms, me in hubbys arms. My placenta will arrive when it is ready to, not when i want it to and my baby will breastfeed when he/she wants to, not when any nurse decides he/she can.
I want no drugs, no interventions, monitors, leads, needles, people.
I want my husband and my ability to feel and sense my own body and my baby uninhibited.
I found this website tonight... www.unassistedchildbirth.com ! I am in love. Its not only amazing for women thinking or planning an unassisted birth but also women planning or thinking of a homebirth. Heres a few things ive learnt from them....
Dick-Read explained it in this way: when a woman is in a state of fear, messages are sent to the body telling it there is a danger out there that must be fought or run away from. Blood and oxygen are instantly sent into the arms and legs enabling the frightened woman to fight the danger or run away. In order for this to happen, however, blood and oxygen must be drained from other organs which the body considers nonessential for fight or flight. This is why we turn white when we're afraid. The body assumes that our leg muscles need blood and oxygen more than our face does.
Unfortunately, when it comes to fight or flight, the uterus is considered a nonessential organ. According to Dick-Read, the uterus of a frightened woman in labor is literally white. Because it is deprived of "fuel" - blood and oxygen - it cannot function correctly, nor can waste products be properly carried away. Hence, the laboring woman experiences not only pain, but a multitude of problems. The solution, he believed, was twofold: not only do women need to stop being afraid, but doctors need to stop interfering in the process. Laboring women do not need to be poked, prodded, and drugged. Instead, they need to be calmly encouraged, or simply left alone so their bodies may work unhindered.
It's no wonder that so many babies in the hospital are determined to be in distress. They're literally suffocating.
The routine administering of Pitocin and epidural anesthesia is directly responsible for many of the "complications" women in the hospital experience. The C-section rate in this country is high not because vaginal birth is inherently dangerous or difficult. It is high because birth is not designed to be medically managed.
So what is the alternative to a medically-managed hospital "delivery"? Some would say a homebirth with a midwife. It is true that midwives as a whole are much more trusting of birth than doctors are. Many of them understand not only the dangers of medical intervention, but the effect of fear on a laboring woman's body. A loving midwife can offer a fearful woman a tremendous amount of emotional support. Yet midwife-attended births are not without their problems. Artificial rupturing of the membranes, instructions to push or not push - regardless of the desires of the laboring woman - and aggressive management of the third stage of labor (delivery of the placenta) are not uncommon in a midwife-attended birth. Part of this may be due to legal requirements. A midwife is required to "chart" a woman's labor. What this means is that technically she must measure dilation and time contractions (among other things). A woman must also be transported if her placenta hasn't delivered within an hour of the birth - even though there is no evidence that suggests retaining a placenta for longer than an hour causes problems. Of course, many midwives ignore these requirements, and allow women to give birth in their own time and in their own way. When a midwife does intervene, however, the consequences can be devastating.
I refuse to believe that birth is this big mystery that the ordinary woman can't possibly understand. If a woman is in touch with her physical and spiritual instincts, she does not need to be told how to give birth, any more than she needs to be told how to make love or how to go to the bathroom. Birth is a natural bodily function that is sorely in need of demystification. It's time women stopped putting doctors and midwives on pedestals and started believing in their own abilities. The sun will come up tomorrow, the grass will continue to grow, and our babies will come out if we let them. The key is to not interfere - either physically or psychologically.
Hmmm, so what do you think?! Jump on the website if you are truely intreged and read and discover it all for yourself! Lots of amazing stories.
I know that i will cop alot of flack for thinking and now writing all of this but hey what do i care, this is MY blog. I write it for me. My thoughts not in a diary but on a computer screen. I am considering an unassisted birth. I AM CONSIDERING AN UNASSISTED BIRTH!
Oh and just before i go, a few days ago i read a blog post. Cant rmember where i found it but it went something like this.... "I wouldnt take my toddler with a mild fevevr and runny nose to a hospital to be hooked up to monitors, leads, oxygen and i.v's just incase these sniffles turn into pneumonia or bronchchiolitus so why would i as a healthy laboring woman go to a hopsital to give birth just because something may go wrong." Something to think about.
Oh and another thing, as far as i am concerned, my scars are of no signifigence to me!